Though most love the rush of Adrenalin that lust brings, this is the animal within us and not the spiritual side of us, though it is connected within us it is, it is the quick fix but also is the art of survival, the animal instinct in us is something that all of us seem to be drawn to, but what about some of us that want mostly the spiritual side.

Lately I have been told by friends and family to just go out and get laid, though I have two major issues with this, one is it has not fixed anything in the past it only makes me angry and depressed, two it is not what I want, so I am refusing to take advise of this kind and going with my spiritual side and leaving the animal at home.

The spiritual side of Love is companionship and sharing the love, both putting in the effort and not just one doing all the work for little or no reward, what I want and I am a male is to find someone to share my life with and not just the sexual organs with.

Though I have found most people live by there animal instinct to have sex and procreate, also for enjoyment, I am all for that but what has happened to the companionship the spiritual side of the relationship unit, I see it in families sometimes but I very rarely see it in couples with out kids.

I feel as though I am backwards in this thinking, but I feel people do not see this way, but in my heart and mind I am right, I know in christian teaching you need to wait till marriage but personally I do not believe marriage to be something someone else gives, it is up each individual who seeks.

So why am I not on the animal side what makes me tick, why do I weigh this as companionship first sex after, it does make it hard in a world where the quick fix is what everyone wants, I have yet to meet someone like me and if I do I will report back!

But then I went out or I should say rang up and updated my phone to match my new car, well that was my thinking anyway, now I want more new stuff I feel as I am becoming addicted to aquiring new items to replace the old.

The question and point I am getting to is I have this feeling I may get addicted to buy new things, trying hard not I even leave the credit card at home to slow down the spending, I am even looking for reasons to spend more on me, wanting to buy a christmas present for my self rather than finding presents for my family and friends.

Am I become selfish only wanting to please my self, how many other have an addiction to following the marketing and finding those shiny new materialistic objects to just have something either though they are useful and fun!

Pushing ourselves everyday can have an affect on our health mind, body & soul, struggling to keep yourself in shape and struggling to be aware of your surroundings, taking on too much in our lives is just what we do not want.

Working way too much does not improve our lives later on in life, unless your great with money off course, having an over active social life does the opposite affect, and then you need to fit in sleep.

I notice that I go through fazes much like the moon does one week is all work the next is the TV then all work and I never can find that nice balance of doing a time allocated allotment to get things done, I personally find it frustrating but when I try to change something everything else goes flying out the window.

How does your life cope with the struggles of this hectic life and what can you take out to make it easier, or are you one who watch’s your favorite shows on TV and only has time for work and play & sleep and no time for social gatherings!

Following someone else’s word and description of events is not just a a lie but it does not reflect humanity in reality. To watch or read about history over time most is actually proven inaccurate over time, as both sides of the story come to light through the ages showing you that not only are they lies but the truth is bound to be found.

Finding out what the true history of humanity is to read both sides of the story or to just dig deeper and find out what really happened rather than taking some one else’s word for fact. Over time we have discovered that the Chinese had found and discovered more of the world than what was previously thought or are they just making it up? Each country in Europe and Asia have all proclaimed to have discovered things yet most of the time “people” already lived there and some took it and some traded.

Artifacts have been found that have proven some history has actually been manipulated to be against progression and usually in the name of God, but it is fear that stopped it, now we are starting to discover the truth we may find that we progress faster without restrictions and without fear bringing history to pronounce humanities story and not just his story or one persons story to another.

We need to stop propaganda and start seeing the truth, being true to ourselves as a world of people as humanly as possible, we need to strive to be honest to each other and become friends in understanding that lies deceit and propaganda are not what we want and it does not create the peaceful world we want.

Well to begin with it is a belief system, your own that is, allowing yourself to freely express and experience your soul. Express your self inwardly and outwardly, to be helpful to your loved ones and to help out a stranger that will accept help. To be a part of a community. Though there are times when you still need to stand up for yourself and become the boss of you.

Being spiritual person is being about being you and not allowing others to rule you, you must remember you are your own God and definitely not someone else’s, as much as other people like having that egotistic control over other living beings, we develop a defense against this control which gives us our personalities, maybe you could spot in a person how there parents treated them.

I heard someone say that a person was not spiritual once, it made me angry, everyone is spiritual, I bit my tongue and moved on, I found it offensive that someone could say that someone is not spiritual, we are all born of whatever the deep making’s of us when we fully understand it, we come from within the universe it’s self.

So what does it mean to being a spiritual, being you is the most accurate or what the spiritual community call the I AM!

To achieve goals is a dream, when you sleep you dream, but what about how day dreams work and you find yourself staring into space and then all of a sudden you just lock in and the dream is a must. The idea just must go ahead you really want or desire to follow through on this idea, where did it come from though? Lets see!

You have the subconscious mind, your higher self, some kind of god depending on what religion or faith you allow yourself to follow, or just a spark of inspiration, personally I say all of the above in this order just for the sake of a list :0) .

1. God – The Mysterious One (religious or physics take your pick.)

2.The light Bringer or Higher Being ( Angel, Messenger or otherwise what do you believe?)

3. Higher self ( Delivered like a letter to your thought process.)

4. Subconscious Mind (Your special spam filter, yes sometimes spam does get through.)

5.It’s up to you now the emotion is positive lets try it, negative accept it and let it go (Important!).

Really is simple but, why is it that God communicates in this way? Because we may go insane with direct contact and there is no filter and you have help and your thoughts would be directly answered now that would be a problem for a lot of us with the junk we all think about and only the most important thoughts and requests get back to us when needed.

In closing, the reason that I am talking about idea dreams like this is that I had one only last week, I asked for an idea dream for a website which is setup and running now! I received as I was talking sitting around a campfire in a vivid dream I was having and I followed through with this dream, I will update you on this in the future on how this pans out, I know it will be positive but in what way?

Here is a link http://psyspiritualforum.com (Shameless self promotion I know. :p )

I know the internet is for all to use and to express one self but I have been looking through blogs and forums and reading articles and people expressing themselves seem to be possessive and selfish about there experiences and the worst thing is looking at some things I write I am doing exactly the same thing, is this normal are we all subconsciously possessive and selfish?

The realization of this has made me realise that we can not keep taking possession or control of situations, the part of us that needs to be tamed but not hidden unless we want to go back to mindless armies hell bent on taking over the world, is it really human nature to want to posses everything in there path.

What I am getting at is people who comment or post in forums, announce that it is there forum or it is there information, which I really don’t think they would do this on purpose would they? Articles that are written like they are the first people to discover the article topic, yet it just seems to be a a rewrite of a previous article I had read only a week prior.

Am I just reading to deeply into this or is the internet just a bunch of rehashed information put in different formats so someone someday may understand it, different view points from the masses on the one subject, maybe the re-wording of a subject may just change the world?

While I was getting a massage I decided to meditate during this massage and I did with ease, lost total track of time and was truly relaxed I even went to a dream state and discovered that I was wishing for my day to be grand, as I was already in the happy state all I wanted to do is to achieve my goals for this week, which I did by 2 pm this afternoon and had time to spare, only a few things left to do tomorrow which is only minor stuff which should not take long.

Solved a lot of things I was worried about over the past couple of weeks, by starting the day of with a massage I had a clear mind and was able to achieve these goals in record time and with great ease. Massage is great way to become one with mind and body, so next time you get a massage why not meditate while your getting it done.

Though the actual translation for Dukkha I could not find though I did find a lot saying it does not mean suffering, unless you find you have trapped your thoughts in a loop of disgust disgruntled rage, for centuries we keep focused on the pain and suffering of our lives but are we really that bad off, really we have everything we need right here now.

But your saying but I don’t have enough for food or bills or to buy a house, all you need is a roof over your head a veggie garden, some clothes on your back, though for most this would be suffering, it would not equate to life for them, being none materialistic for some is suffering for others to have material objects is suffering, it comes down to your perspective and what you have been brought up to believe or how to view the world.

To suffer is to put yourself in your own personal hell, to over emphasis on objects including dramas, some forms of Christianity promote hell is were god sends you if your bad, as you are your own god you are the one suffering for yourself, you suffer in silence and blame what you think is an all knowing entity, we know that there is more to life than just us, there is a higher being, but it is only a consciousness that live in and outside of us observing not judging.

To suffer is to be trapped in ones own mind or world, the external influences do not trap your being, though some people get themselves into these positions and suffer immensely for there decisions, find there stuck in a situation, this is especially true when others are involved and you feel like you need to help them, but they are quite capable of helping themselves, though then there are circumstances where you have to help them.

Basically suffering is about circumstance, your thoughts and your perspective.

The fact that we do this is not that bad though through the ages we have done some dastardly and horrific things which is what most of our wars have been based on, the insecurities of our own minds our worst fears externalized in a blood bath of human life, but there are the smaller, what some of us call mundane things in our life’s that can hurt individuals who may make a small mistake in there life’s and then exaggeration sets in.

The fact the we turn an event that appears to be of questionable into something horrific and out of context seems to be human nature to protect our morals or afraid for our selves in some way, we need to be patient and wait for the facts to come rather than jumping up and saying he did it, or I see something I don’t like lets castrate the next person I see do that, how far can we take something and not look back later and say to ourselves why did we jump to the worst possible vision, outcome or judgment?

WE are always looking for scapegoats someone to judge for there actions even if they are guilty or innocent if it does no harm to others it is an innocent mistake, if it harms others then that questionable act is in question in our society that we live and play in, our world should be kept safe but not restrictive and use caution when the water cooler be comes the judgment zone.